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Musings on Nostalgia

 Since I'm writing these reflective growing up pieces, I've been obviously hung up on the idea of nostalgia. It's a bit of a trigger word isn't it? Maybe remininesse is a better word. It invokes a sense of happy reflection instead of a desire to reverse time. But it's all looking to the past for...something, right?  And can't nostalgia be problematic? Especially the unchecked nostalgia that have some pining for the good ol' days of slavery and Jim Crow. The kind of nostalgia that fails to see the harm, often destructive nature of past cultural norms. Hell don't we currently have culture norms that harm today?  Maybe there are people that don't live constantly under the consequences of the past. As far as I know, good or bad, we are all a products of our past. But don't past experiences determine a lot of our future outcomes?  Sometimes I find myself wrestling with how to reconcile my past experiences with my more knowledgeable self of today. For ...

Some Funny Queer Shit

 1 month since resigning from the library.     First, I want to say thank you Universe for this time to just be. Being one month into traditional unemployment has been not difficult. Not easy either. Very contemplative. Both positive and negative contemplations.  The positive ones: I have the fortune of my partner finding employment literally in the knick of time so that we wouldn't be homeless. I'm proud of them. And I'm thankful for them for sure. Even though I found it sad that I left my job as soon as I saw any light of opportunity to quit, but I'm still happy I did. And Kezia seems to be happy that I did too and that gives me confidence that I did the right thing.  The Negative contemplations: The usual really. What have I done? I gave up an entire career to pursue what really? Writing? Who do I think I am? And when I get into these contemplations I find that I get depressed and freeze whatever I'm doing. I'm trying to live more presently. That was par...