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Because so much has happened in the past month, I'm going to borrow my dear friend/homie/sis/MY DUDE Lindsay Barber's style and list a couple of new events that have occurred.
1) I am working full time as a Librarian now. Never thought I would be in a position like this so quickly but it's pretty awesome. This has opened up a lot of doors for us. Things such as
a) Paying bills
b) Paying bills
c) Paying bills
d) Going to Durham for a weekend get away (spontaneity is a plus to me )

2) A big part of working full time is that I get to start testosterone a lot sooner than what I expected. So soon, in fact, that I get my first T shot on this coming Friday. So with this in mind throughout the week I keep
a) looking at the calendar
b) paranoid my testosterone and syringes will not be at the Rite Aid when I get there on Friday.
c) thinking that going to bed early will rush the week
d) keeping busy so that Friday will hurry up and come.

3) Throughout the past couple of months I have learned a lot too. These include
a) Learning how to be a man from older lesbians (I'm going to write a blog about this very soon)
b) Learning how to be a man from affirming Black men (amazing what you can find in Thomasville, NC)
c) My spirituality is a part of my transition. Both physically, mentally, and spiritually I am going through a metamorphosis. Meicka says I'm in my cocoon right now. I like that.
d) I have a lot to say, but I don't feel like I do. Maybe its the amazing people I have encountered. Or the stories I have heard, and the sacred energies I have been around that make me feel unworthy. But I'm coming out of that.

4) A recent memior about a trans guy came out this year (I wanna say this summer but I could be wrong). The books is called Nina Here Nor There by Nick Kriger. Trans, lesbian, cis, straight, bi, whatever, you gotta read this book. And maybe I'm being biased. Maybe because I am seeing so much of myself in the main character Nina (who is Nick now) that I can't put the book down. Or maybe because it is a really good way to pass the time between taking my first shot of T that it really is great read.  But it is awesome and everyone should go support. Not every day you see someone in the Trans community put themselves out there (Note: I may be referring to Nick in the incorrect way. I haven't finished the book yet, so don't quote me)

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